Saturday, 15 December 2012

Newly published poetry and prose book
Poems for The Shaw "Coming across a new writer may seem daunting but do not be put off. The trick is to persevere. Much good writing is multilayered and complex. It is precisely this diversity and complexity that makes literature rewarding and exhilarating. Undoubtedly the best way to extract the most from a text is to read it several times." —Rose Miller-- A dishwasher in Edmonton witnesses a friend demoted an old lady exploited a man subjected to racism and his girlfriend insulted... so he organizes a union. Here are the vignettes. Here are the poems. POETRY & PROSE / MEMOIR Hardcover / 4.5" x 7.625" / 96 pages ISBN 978-0-9880710-0-1 Published by Confab Press

Saturday, 10 November 2012

QUOTE(S) OF THE DAY== "We don't see things the way they are. We see them the way WE are." Talmud. "To be blind is bad, but worse is to have eyes and not see." Hellen Keller "If it looks good, you'll see it. If it sounds good, you'll hear it. If it's marketed right, you'll buy it. But... if it's real, you will feel it." Kid Rock

Thursday, 6 September 2012

Hi Everyone, Since you are all readers of my meanderings … my new project is called: Observations (and notes) of and from A Broken Life in a Monetized Atomized World I’m going to start from the premise that children go through stages of development (probably using Erikson’s stages of life cus they ask simple questions. For example: The theory goes from the age of zero to two a child determines: Is the world safe or hostile… This message is imparted from the infants primarily caregiver usually the mother but it doesn’t seem to matter that much who… but someone has to give the child a sense of safety … so if attention, care and warmth are consistent the infant will develop a trusting persona if not the adult may see the world as dangerous and hostile. Scientist notice people indentify neutral faces as hostile… in my case I can be walking down the street or in a mall with a feeling of dread the faces look dreadful, potentially dangerous and hostile to my existence and this is Winnipeg so really no one knows me i.e. faces are neutral as I walk around like a ghost in a new city. So these scientists were curious so they invented a machine that can measure the brain and they found people with a damage amygdala had difficulty making accurate social judgments about another person’s face and people with larger amygdale had larger and more complex social networks… Then I’ll talk about how I was raised the family back ground bring a little freud in kill the father fuck the mother is the response of the amygdale which receives info a milli second before the rational brain and if we can’t make sense of the information we stop at the a-part of the brain we just react in fight flight or freeze… the nervous system 'one key marital competence is for partners to learn to soothe their own distressed feelings...nothing gets resolved positively when husband or wife is in the midst of an emotional hijacking.'[7] The danger is that 'when our partner becomes, in effect, our enemy, we are in the grip of an "amygdala hijack" in which our emotional memory, lodged in the limbic center of our brain, rules our reactions without the benefit of logic or reason...which causes our bodies to go into a "fight or flight" response'.[8] so I’ll dig deeper and see what emotional memory it is I got stored which is somewhere from between 0-2 which I remember none of but by putting togethor the details of and asking question of my mother and father I’ll be able to put it togethor This activity can be linked to human evolution; during early development, responsive behavior to environmental events would have progressed as a process of trial and error. those who erred died… Survival depended on behavioral patterns that were repeated or reinforced through life and death situations. Through evolution, this process of learning became genetically embedded in humans and all animal species, Dave’s got one in what is known as flight or fight of freeze instinct. The left amygdala has been linked to social anxiety, obsessive and compulsive disorders, and post traumatic stress, as well as more broadly to separation and general anxiety. [27] In a 2003 study, subjects with borderline personality disorder showed significantly greater left amygdala activity than normal control subjects. Some borderline patients even had difficulties classifying neutral faces or saw them as threatening.[28 It is hypothesized that larger amygdalae allow for greater emotional intelligence, enabling greater societal integration and cooperation with others.[44] The amygdala appears to play a role in binge drinking, being damaged by repeated episodes of intoxication and withdrawal. [47] Alcoholism is associated with dampened activation in brain networks responsible for emotional processing, including the amygdala.[48] Does this mean it is better to be a steady drinker of one or two beers a day as opposed to a 20 beer on Tuesday and Friday drinker? well as a socially undeveloped person i would have to say yes... the binge drinking is not good for the brain...too shocking i would say then i'll include parts about me binge drinking. Only 35% of humans develop the capacity to reason formally during adolescence or adulthood. I'm not even sure what that means reason formally... i've finally got the press check on Poems for the Shaw and should have it in my greedy little hands by the 14th of September... then onto Notes of a Broken Life in late stage capitalism or something like that...our poor poor brains (Huitt, W. and Hummel, J. January 1998)[24]

Thursday, 29 March 2012

The Unknown Update as of March 29th


Year Two

Date: Tuesday, April 3rd, 2012

Time: 1:30-7:30 or so

Place: Vancouver Again

Studio: Blue Wave Again (34 West 8th)

Players and Commentary:

The original four are confirmed:

         Mendoza on Bass

                         Burt on Drums

                                   Vincent on Jimbe

                                                D’Gravy on Goodness

                                      A young viola is hovering

           The Cooked guitarist sounds possible

The accordion is in a pawnshop

                 Chai has a spot if he wants one

the sound guy knows              

                       and the songs are finding their way.

Sunday, 4 March 2012

The Unknowns as of March 4th 2012

Tuesday Year Two Vancouver again

The space is rented and an
analogue recording man has been hired.

The vocalist and the jimbe player got drunk
and teased each other mercilessly
eventually resorting to play fighting.

The drummer is still holding out…

The teacher is a trumpet player
and going on strike tomorrow (from teaching that is).

The manager is meeting with the bassist
at the Rusty Gull… tonight with the horn guy.

Chai from SNAFU has agreed to do a cameo…
(we’re unsure if he’ll show)
but he’s got a spot if he wants one.

One of the original members Sid Vicious
is in town but doesn’t have a phone

Rangers friend might do the accordion

the guitarist from Cooked is on the list

and the songs were written long ago.

Monday, 9 January 2012

"The Arab Spring and the Imperialistic Counter Attack" i have not read but did see exactly this on my trip to Egypt.

Darness at Noon

In this short book (211 pages)by Arthur Koestler, translated by Daphne Hardy, the psychology of a jailed revolutionary is explored. The prisoner Rubashov, who has a toothache, is arrested on charges of acting as an agent for the counter revolution. In jail Comrade Ivanov, from the old school interrogates him first, and then he passed on to the new guard Gletkin who is not so kind.
He communicates in code, day dreams forward and the only time he feels scared is when he runs out of cigarettes…he does more of course but you should read the book.
Some quotes:
“But who will be proved right? It will only be known later. Meanwhile he is bound to act on credit and to sell his soul to the devil, in the hope of history’s absolution.” from Rubashov’s diary page 81
“ After a life of sin, he has turned to God--to a God with a double chin of industrial liberalism and the charity of Salvation Army soups.” Ivanov on page 122 debating the merits of an imagined conscience…
“Satan on the other hand, is thin ascetic and fanatical devotee of logic. He reads Machiavelli, Ignatius of Loyola, Marx and Hegel; he is cold and unmerciful to mankind, out of a kind of mathematical mercifulness.” page 122
“Our greatest poets destroyed themselves with this poison. Up to forty, fifty they were revolutionary—then they became consumed by pity and the world announced them holy.” page 124
And I will leave it here as I finish with one last comment from his long argument,
“My point is this on may not regard the world as a sort of metaphysical brothel for emotions…sympathy, conscience, disgust, despair, repentance and atonement are for us repellent debauchery. To sit down and let oneself be hypnotized by one’s own navel…something personal to you, something unprecendented…that is the easy solution…the greatest temptation for the likes of us; is to renounce violence, to repent, to make peace with oneself…the temptation of God is always more dangerous for mankind than those of Satan…when the accursed inner voice speaks to you, hold your hands over your ears…to sell oneself for thirty pieces of silver is an honest transaction, but to sell oneself to one’s own conscience is to abandon mankind. ..history is a priori; it has no conscience…you know the stakes in this game.” page 124-125